I’m going through pain I’m going through hurt i don’t know what to do i should of  been alert.

I got two months until my birthday i want to know how long the pain will last everyday i look in the mirror and i put on this happy mask if you ever heard the saying if you on a mask your covering up your hurt well its true i wish a lot of people in this unpredictable world new.

Everyday its a new trial and tribulation for me i don’t know what to say or what to do but to my heart i lost the key.

 I’m really stressed out i don’t get good sleep i have really bad dreams at night i dream that i would find my parents if the streets didn’t find kill or devour them already.

I’m thinking maybe god is just wanting me to stay steady.

 If i stay here for two months maybe i will be safe the streets is calling my name.

 If i stay I’m okay if i go maybe death do us part i don’t know.

This is real not fake you can take it however you want to take it but i really know that the devil took my mama soul and mine he will try to take.

Trying to find my brother is hard i don’t want to keep going out my way and flipping cards.

 Maybe if i worry about myself me and him our day will come i will see him again and im sure its like eating a apple down to its core.

Trying to get into school and get a job is not as easy as i thought  im just going to stick to GOD and do as i was taught.

 my upper body is like a fest this burden is really heavy that its eating up my chest.

I cant remove this pain i guess ill let GOD do his work and ill work with him and he will take it all away forgive my sins and wouldn’t hurt for me to pray.