I have chosen to love myself  than love you.

 I feel that my heart is not healed but there leaves a bruise.

 this burden on my chest that you call love pulled me in and took my trust.

 the attempted suicide became a game.

 that the game became so real i could of had my last breath .

my cup could have ran over to the point where life will become death.

the bruise on my arm told the story better than i could .

the whips and slashes down my back burned. 

 i told the pigs that i had no memory of what happened but i lied.

i was a slave in his will restrained DOWN and tied.

every time i tried to get out he would GET ME  that was always my LUCK.

i was so angry i was in rage i was a Object a toy that he can Fuck.

so disrespected by a man i disrespected myself  so unappreciated by a man i unappreciated myself .

so unloved by man i didn’t love MYSELF!. not hI’m i loved hI’m i didn’t love ME!!!…

i had always put a man before Lynn Marie.

and he used me physically mentally and emotionally abused me.

what did i do to deserve that pain that kind of  treatment i was tortured and tormented throughout my life .

my soul MY SOUL was on fire asking GOD  to please take me out of  hell on earth.

 the part i had to play i didn’t want to play no more.

the three cuts on my left arm will always be there to remind me of how foolish i was…

the two cuts on my right leg will be there to let me know how i let a man get me down.

and the seed i carry will remain there forever to let me know how i let this disrespectful man ejaculate his manhood into my jewlry  compartment. 

 i literally tried to jump in front of a car so i wouldn’t be the one to go through it .

this was called brutal love  i was so ready for GOD  to call my name up above.

but he had other plans for me to stay I’m carrying a child of GOD now OUT  is not even a way so this made me stronger i pray i live longer.

GOD has already bless me with a man a total opposite of disrespectful.

and i LOVE this man with all my heart I’m changing from a coward to MRS. HOWARD!!!!!!!!!!!……….

so i learned not to put a man before me with the exception of THE ALMIGHTY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and lord i thank you for showing me what love is and letting me see and i definitely thank you for making Lynn Marie Grice ME…….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…………………